As you Die, my thoughts.

Our entire lives, we prepare for this last moment.
The moment when we die. As we breathe our last
breathe you realize, this journey isnt over. We have
had our fun, and now it draws to an end.
We slowly gasp our last breathe and we meet god.
We spend our lives struggling and laughing, crying
and thinking. Now we must face this...the biggest of
all. Im not scared. i know my life was lived well, i devoted
it to the ones i love. Honestly, my fate matters little to
me as i think about how they ended up in their journeys.
So as i lay here dying. My best wishes are to you,
never forget the teachings in heart, but more than that,
never forget the happiness you felt. When it feels like all
else has failed, remember how it felt to be embraced,
remember how it felt when you could trust somebody.
And fight for that. Dont let go, or when you are in the
place as i, you will be afraid to face god. And you will
never feel the peace that was meant to be felt.

uhmmm.

Life is hard sometimes.
So....why does god put challenges here?
Why i have no idea. I just went to youth conference and
i have no idea? Maybe its to make us stronger.
Maybe its too see how far we can go, to
veiw our own full potential. Maybe it is
to conquer all the bad things in the world and
come out with the good.
As long as the hard times dont kill you.
Those people at war, they dont give up,
That doctor who saved your neighbors life,
he didnt give up. Why should i? i wont.
I will be there baby, through the good times
and the bad. Whether you want me or not.
I will always want you. I will always be there for you.
Sometimes..i wish you could see...the little hole in my heart,
so when you looked in, you would see how much i love you
and how much i care about you.
My sweet lover boy, i love you so much.

Cant wait till' summer!

I really cant wait until summer.
Although my outdoor adventures will be minimal,
due to the new child in our house,
it will still be loads of fun.
I cant wait until i get to wake up
early and go fishing...
I cant wait to spend all day at the pool.
I cant wait to run around at night
with my friends talking about our most recent
boyfriends. I really cant wait
until summer.
Homework is killing me. Literally.
I want a certain teacher to die....
That sounds very mean, but if he knew the pain i
go through when i look at each packet.
What kind of teacher gives packets of homework
over spring break!!?
Anyway, i really cant wait till summer.
Its only thirty five school days away!:D

He is coming home!!

So today, is Friday. My love comes home tomarrow:)
As long as his foot is okay...
The beautiful moron ran his foot over with a lawn mower.
He told me it would only heal if i kissed him.
I told him he cant hit on his doctor.
Cant wait to see his face!
-Ali

Two roads, diverged in a yellow wood;
so sweet the pain we taste from love...
It lingers and still, we must decide.
Two fates presented in a book of life.
Two opposites, with no escape that hides the torture.
Now my grave calls to me.
My own sanctuary be mine own last breathe.
Leave the road, and die in the pain we love.
So sweet how it lingers in your heart.
As the bullet from the gun takes leave.
Take my memories, so dark, and lock them away,
never to depart.

Courage, is not the absence of fear.
Tis not the conquer of fear.
It is not the overcoming of fear.
It is simply the sucking it up, forgetting
about your self and facing fear.
That is Courage.
The beautiful thing that keeps my
blood running through the broken shards
of my heart.
The reason I love the way I do.
That is Courage.